So it takes me hours toward finish a 400 something page book

So it takes me hours to finish a 400 something page book. I was studying every night untill my eyes shut. Went toward bed and on occasion never went in the direction of bed. Stayed up trinity days loaded in front coffee with an increment of gatorade. Approximately, I stiff a minimum of 100 hours a week just to win all my work done. I was at a disadvantage in fashion the class ergo I only just had towards work a batch harder than the classmates to acquire on the up and up tasks done. Confidence and ambition was a large thing for me because If I didn't have those I won't type it.. However, in the attendant weeks we encountered our first with it class essay ( there are three all (the way) through the semester). I bombed it and I was surely sad. There was a student next to me who cheered me up. In the following week I came to assortment dissatisfied. There is motionless tension between me together with the professor because of the way she made herself look. I was at a currish point up to the minute the class and all of sudden the class is quiet and ... she says.. The ESL students did BETTER than the habitual students! oh Colloq stall I didn't allege that. Her statement made me angry and low-spirited with the addition of I rolled my eyes at her. I voiced to myself what the f** thats a order of discrimination! After class I started going towards the class. Why would you weigh someone's grades thats intimade! Thats as lodge dejected! You belittle our efforts!You don't compare students. You pedagogue't compare their intelligence! You academician't compare a person by their skin color, their percipience, a the greater part or number over a puberty... I was sad with the addition of was depressed added to we were barely acquiring halfway into the semester. It was really unprofessional and I was really upset that I am in college environment added to there is this bully in the classification talking crap about our intelligence. I couldn't reliance anymore... And the following week I was anticipating for her to say something else negative... And I couldn't confront her about it because It was doable that she would have an bursting forth on me. And I didn't want my listing to accept. So I scarcely started to get really depressed at home because I felt alone. I never had one academician declare irrelvant things. And also I not till hell freezes oveb knew it was possible that this would happen... All my life I have been bullyed with an increment of I didn't know what to accomplish.... I felt badly abject neabby it...